One year of transformation journal

 I am on the right track. I am half a kilogram lighter than yesterday. I feel amazing and so proud.  I really want this for myself.  In the morning I had a fried egg with cheese and veggies and a little bit of bread. I took my Indian supplements and the last spirulina pill that I have.  98 kg. 

 I felt good and motivated today.  I am eager to lose weight. I have in mind to drop 200 grams every day. I know it is a lot, but the idea that I could have my dream body by my birthday is stronger than any struggle.  98.5 kg as per today.  I read a bit from the Lake by Yasunari Kawamata. However, I found the first novelette to be boring and ridiculous. I didn't like it. I have two more to read.  I felt very tired after work. I did some extra hours.  Skin care: retinol + serum + SPF cream  Food : tomatoes, cucumbers, cheese, eggs and bread Book : Yasunari Kawamata - "the Lake"  Water: Almost 5 liters.

 It is decided that I should no longer focus on a big weight loss goal and that I should do it 1 kg at a time and 1 cm at a time.  I have forgotten to measure myself today, though.  However, I am more motivated that before to fulfill my goal. The goal for this summer is to drop 9 kgs. I hope that I will be able to do it before fall. I do it for my health.  I started working at 9 a.m. Then I could do some driving school online tests and have read from Kawabata's book between incoming calls and mails.  I am sad that I have spent most of my time scrolling on social media, especially on TikTok. I need to break from social media.  I watched the movie "Unfaithful" from 2002 with Richard Gere and Diane Lane.

I write this on the 2nd of June.  I worked hard these days and I started reading Daphne du Maurier's novel " Frenchman's Creek". So far I like it, but I don't have too much of a motivation to read. I have occupied my time with watching weight loss shows and playing mystery games. I also did some learning for driver's school.  The dress that I wanted came back on stock at HnM and I could purchase it. However it took a long time to arrive and when it arrived I found it too tight on my breasts and I could barely close the zipper and breathe in it. I am now even more motivated than ever to loose weight. I need to lose weight to fit in this gorgeous dress. I started to weigh in almost on a daily basis because when I don't I tend to forget that I am on a weight loss journey and start binge eating. I don't even know how I managed to put on this much weight again. 

I wasn't in the mood for anything today.  I washed my hair and mosturized myself everywhere. I prepared myself for leaving for Ploiesti tomorrow. 

Woah! What a huge day was today! I woke up at around 9 a.m. I had my supplements and my protein shake.  I woke up lighter today and I think that that also contributed to my wellbeing.  Then I went to work. I had a lot of work to do because our customers had troubles with our apps this morning; two of them were not working anymore. So I had a lot of calls and mails and tickets to keep me busy until afternoon.  When everything calmed down I read the last 50 pages from Meg Mason's book, "Sorrow and Bliss" and I read another 50 from Kristin Hannah's book, "Night Road". After work I did a work out from one of Chloe Ting's programs that I abandoned last year. I felt good. And I washed my hair.  My mom mad chicken thighs and potatoes and I had to resist the urge to eat a lot in the evening. So I made myself a salad with lettuce, green onion and vinaigrette and I also had a few potatoes with eat because I craved for them a little. Now I am going on my other blog...

It was so cloudy today and I didn't feel like doing anything productive I did have a lot to work though, especially in the first part of the day.  In the evening I couldn't read more than 20 pages from this book. I didn't cheat on my diet today, but I wasn't in caloric deficit too much. I didn't feel like working out. It is ok.

I think I had too much protein for one day. I had it in my morning chocolate shake, at lunch in my fried eggs, then at 4:30 pm in my berry and chocolate protein shake, in the evening when I had cheese and pork ciorba for dinner and in my supplements. I need to pay attention more to what I am eating because I don't want to disrupt anything in my body.  Nutrition wise, I did well today until dinner time when I indulged in ciorba and cottage cheese with sour cream. But overall I think I did ok.  I don't want nutrition and weight loss to be my main goals in life all my life so I want to focus on them now and resolve the issue. I want to reach 90 kg in the following two months. I cannot bring myself to exercise though. I need to start with baby steps again and change my mentality into believing that sport is not work, but leisure time, I thing that I should get done when I am bored, or tired.  I read 100 pages from Segovia's book, "the winemaker's wife". Weight tod...