One year of transformation journal

 I felt good and motivated today.  I am eager to lose weight. I have in mind to drop 200 grams every day. I know it is a lot, but the idea that I could have my dream body by my birthday is stronger than any struggle.  98.5 kg as per today.  I read a bit from the Lake by Yasunari Kawamata. However, I found the first novelette to be boring and ridiculous. I didn't like it. I have two more to read.  I felt very tired after work. I did some extra hours.  Skin care: retinol + serum + SPF cream  Food : tomatoes, cucumbers, cheese, eggs and bread Book : Yasunari Kawamata - "the Lake"  Water: Almost 5 liters.

I write this on the 2nd of June.  I worked hard these days and I started reading Daphne du Maurier's novel " Frenchman's Creek". So far I like it, but I don't have too much of a motivation to read. I have occupied my time with watching weight loss shows and playing mystery games. I also did some learning for driver's school.  The dress that I wanted came back on stock at HnM and I could purchase it. However it took a long time to arrive and when it arrived I found it too tight on my breasts and I could barely close the zipper and breathe in it. I am now even more motivated than ever to loose weight. I need to lose weight to fit in this gorgeous dress. I started to weigh in almost on a daily basis because when I don't I tend to forget that I am on a weight loss journey and start binge eating. I don't even know how I managed to put on this much weight again. 

My presence on social media goes almost unnoticed. I decided to stop worrying about it and just be myself. I reduced the number of hashtags.  There isn't much to say about the past few days, except that I worked, I started reading Ovidiu Eugen Chirovici's novel "The book of Mirrors", and I am continuing on watching The Outlander.  Today I made a cake for my family.  I have been neglectful about myself. It is time that I change this. It is odd how I notice that I am wasting time on doing something unimportant only when I am writing about it. This is what everyone on YouTube is talking about, and also Marcus Aurelius mentioned it: "write about your day".