One year of transformation journal

 It is decided that I should no longer focus on a big weight loss goal and that I should do it 1 kg at a time and 1 cm at a time.  I have forgotten to measure myself today, though.  However, I am more motivated that before to fulfill my goal. The goal for this summer is to drop 9 kgs. I hope that I will be able to do it before fall. I do it for my health.  I started working at 9 a.m. Then I could do some driving school online tests and have read from Kawabata's book between incoming calls and mails.  I am sad that I have spent most of my time scrolling on social media, especially on TikTok. I need to break from social media.  I watched the movie "Unfaithful" from 2002 with Richard Gere and Diane Lane.

Today I took a day off from work because I needed to help my mom with the preparations for grandma's 40 day death commemoration. I woke up at around 09 a.m. and went to the nearest town with our family's friend to buy food and necessities for the commemoration. My mom had already started to make food for the event before I was gone. In the afternoon my auntie visited and stayed the night. I helped my auntie and mom with the food packages for the people. It is customary in Romania to give away food and invite people over when it is a funeral or a commemoration. In the evening we also made the koliva (a traditional desert made with boiled wheat, walnuts and sugar, served only on funerals or commemorations).  My dad and my uncle made the barbeque for the invitees. We finished the work at around 9:30 p.m. I was so tired that I couldn't fall asleep easily.  I didn't forget to take my supplements and have decent meals. I didn't pay attention to what I was eating, I rememb...

 I woke up at eight o'clock. Despite the fact that it was super chilly and cloudy outside, I felt awesome for the entire day. I didn't have energy spikes or lows. I think this is due to the new supplements that I've started to take since yesterday. The day went easily and I didn't have too much work to do, so I read 160 pages from Kristin Harmel's book "The Winemaker's Wife". In the evening I did some bullet journaling and this was my day. I'd say that I ate pretty clean today, except for 2 Roshen chocolate candies at lunch.  Weight : 98.2 kg ↑ Wake up : 08:00 Breakfast : supplements + protein shake  Lunch : supplements + 2 drumsticks + one boiled egg + 2 pralines  Snacks : spirulina latte+apple+2 boiled eggs+ cucumber slices + leftover grean beans + 1 slice of bread  Dinner : supplements + veggies stew + polenta + cottage cheese with sour cream and spring onions Book : Kristin Harmel - The Winemaker's Wife. 

 I woke up early today, had cheese and veggies for breakfast and started working at around 9 a.m. At noon I received my supplements and made myself a spirulina latte. The taste is not bad but I don't think I will ever be eager to have a spirulina latte. Before lunch I had my supplements (lion's mane capsule, 2 spirulina capsules and CLA capsule).  I read around 130 pages from Segovia's book, which absolutely broke my heart and finished the rest before bed.  Before dinner I had a 15 minutes stroll with my brother in the fields and I took the same supplements that I took for lunch.  Today I also opted for a cheaper mobile subscription, which offers me the same benefits as my old one. I am very happy about it because the services are better. Weight : N/A Wake up: 8 a.m. Skin care : N/A Breakfast : veggies + cheese+ bread Snack : spirulina latte Lunch : spirulina+lion's mane+CLA + 2 fried eggs + bread+mushrooms Dinner : spirulina+lion's mane+CLA capsule+ bread and yogu...

I can`t bring myself to exercise. I woke up late again, but I slept well last night although I went to bed at around 2 am. I felt sluggish in the morning, but the menthol in my tooth paste and the cold water that I washed my faced with woke me up instantly. I wish I could be more motivated in the morning, but I cannot bring myself to do anything.  I had a lot of work to get done, but it was easier than yesterday. I did declutter my room a bit and in the evening and I read 100 pages from Sofia Segovia`s book "The Murmur of Bees". Diet wise, I cheated today but I think it was moderately. This time I could stop myself from binge eating. I think that a good part on development is to know when to stop the habits that could damage you long-term. I already know that tomorrow I will weigh more, but I am proud of myself for not going overboard with binge eating. My mom gave a champagne cream filled croissant, but I didn't eat it; I didn't open it and it still stays on my night...

Today I woke up more refreshed and earlier than yesterday. I had an excellent night's sleep.  I didn't feel hungry in the morning so I had my lunch later, at around 12-13 pm. I had a shower in the morning and I washed my face with a cleaner from Bioderma, then I applied a serum, salicylic acid and a SPF cream to my face.  I tried to read something today during work hours, but I could only read 1 story from Fănuș Neagu's book. I continued reading from his book after dinner.  Although I feel good about my new diet, I still crave for things. So I snacked on smoked chicken breast even though I shouldn't have and had two vanilla biscuits. In the evening I had a lamb stew instead of chicken.  It is very difficult for me to focus. I find myself picking up my phone to look for something and then I wake up scrolling or playing games. I try to reduce the time I spend on my phone with doing something more productive. What is a blessing could also be a curse.  I want to giv...