One year of transformation journal

 I felt good and motivated today.  I am eager to lose weight. I have in mind to drop 200 grams every day. I know it is a lot, but the idea that I could have my dream body by my birthday is stronger than any struggle.  98.5 kg as per today.  I read a bit from the Lake by Yasunari Kawamata. However, I found the first novelette to be boring and ridiculous. I didn't like it. I have two more to read.  I felt very tired after work. I did some extra hours.  Skin care: retinol + serum + SPF cream  Food : tomatoes, cucumbers, cheese, eggs and bread Book : Yasunari Kawamata - "the Lake"  Water: Almost 5 liters.

 It is decided that I should no longer focus on a big weight loss goal and that I should do it 1 kg at a time and 1 cm at a time.  I have forgotten to measure myself today, though.  However, I am more motivated that before to fulfill my goal. The goal for this summer is to drop 9 kgs. I hope that I will be able to do it before fall. I do it for my health.  I started working at 9 a.m. Then I could do some driving school online tests and have read from Kawabata's book between incoming calls and mails.  I am sad that I have spent most of my time scrolling on social media, especially on TikTok. I need to break from social media.  I watched the movie "Unfaithful" from 2002 with Richard Gere and Diane Lane.

Today I read for almost the entire time.  I finished reading "The Frenchman's Creek" by Daphné du Maurier and started reading "The Lake" by Yasunari Kawamata.  I made shrimp pastas. 

 Today I woke up early and I started cleaning my room. I decluttered it and cleaned my desk and my night stand. I took down the spider webs and dusted the furniture.  Then, in the afternoon I made tortellini with a la Toscana sauce.  It was a good day.  I did not weigh myself in.  

I woke up at 5, applied sunscreen and went to the bus station. I almost missed the buss so I jogged a bit.  I had to wait for my driving instructor in Mizil for more than a half an hour. Then we went to Ploiesti.  I think that I drove pretty good today. I still don't know how to drive in the gyratory, but I am learning.  There are a lot more things to learn. I took the train back home and then I did hitch-hiking to get back home. I am more motivated than ever to take this drivers' licence.  Breakfast: chicken + cheese + bread  Snack: bagel  Lunch: Chicken ciorba + bread + pickled hot pepper  Snack: Vanilla cream wafer sandwiches 

 Sorry for not writing here at all.  I've been busy, OK?  If I am not at work doing overtime hours, I am at Ploiesti taking driving lessons, if I am not there, then I am at work in Bucharest.  I have neglected myself a bit in some days, in others I did everything in my powers to become my best version and exhausted myself. I hope that I will become better day by day.  To summarize what I did in the last month: I DID GOOD.  I survived, I lived beautifully. I met new people and seen new places. My driving skills have improved. I read two books and seen a couple of movies.  I ate well and exercised a bit. I did more walking this month. I posted a Youtube video. Today my ayurvedic products came in. I want to grow my hair and I am very excited to try my new hair products.  Later edit: The products are nice. However, I applied too much of hair oil on my scalp and the indian shampoo, because it doesn't contain SLS, didn't clean my hair properly. So during the drying process, I rea

Today I went to Mizil and met the driving instructor. He took me outside the town and then let me drive until Ploiești and back. I wasn't nervous. I was actually relaxed. I drove with 80 km/hour and at some point I surpassed the speeding limit.  I still need to learn a lot of commands, but he said that for the first hour it was very good. I am very motivated and enthusiastic about this.  When we got back from Ploiești, I went and did the groceries. At home I took a big nap and cleaned my room.  In the evening I watched an Indian movie with my brother: Bajirao and Mastani. It is a gorgeous must see movie. 

I write this on the 2nd of June.  I worked hard these days and I started reading Daphne du Maurier's novel " Frenchman's Creek". So far I like it, but I don't have too much of a motivation to read. I have occupied my time with watching weight loss shows and playing mystery games. I also did some learning for driver's school.  The dress that I wanted came back on stock at HnM and I could purchase it. However it took a long time to arrive and when it arrived I found it too tight on my breasts and I could barely close the zipper and breathe in it. I am now even more motivated than ever to loose weight. I need to lose weight to fit in this gorgeous dress. I started to weigh in almost on a daily basis because when I don't I tend to forget that I am on a weight loss journey and start binge eating. I don't even know how I managed to put on this much weight again. 

I started the weekend with doing some cleaning . Mom made legumes ciorba and it was incredible.  I feel motivated to loose weight.  I have finished my bottle of CLA. I placed an HnM order because I found some cool stuff and I deserve cool stuff. However, I could not find on stock the coolest dress ever.