Day 29

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I logged in for work one hour earlier, because I need to recover some hours. 

I didn't calculate what I ate or what I weighed for the past few days. I am still taking my supplements. 

I took some driving lessons on the app for an hour and for another hour I did some tests. 

In the evening I started reading Djuna Barnes's book "Nightwood".


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